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Judging People

Do you judge other people? Honestly now. I do and I’m ashamed of it. I try not to. I really do. But, sometimes, I just can’t help myself. I keep my thoughts pretty much to myself, sometimes I blog about them, sometimes I rant to my husband about them, but mainly I just shake my head and keep moving on.

I know that it’s up to God to judge each of us. I know we’re not supposed to judge each other. And I certainly have been proved wrong before. So, why do I keep doing it? Why does my brain automatically think “bad mother” when I see someone smoking in their car with kids on board? And is it such a bad thing? Isn’t that mother not thinking of her child as she puts both their lives at risk?

I had a conversation with a friend the other day. She is a much better person than I am… or at least I think she is from what she says. She talked about she doesn’t like to be judged, so she doesn’t judge other people. Her mentality was “if you don’t like me, fine”. And I like that about her. It doesn’t bother me if somebody non-essential to my everyday wellbeing doesn’t like me. I know I’m different and that’s okay. I don’t expect other people to be just like me and to think just like I do. Sure would be nice though 😀

I have been judged before and still am to this day. I was judged as a teenager when I wore all black, spiked my hair up, dyed it purple and had a bad attitude. I was judged when I looked like a teenager at 22 when I had my first baby. I was judged as a b*tch when I moved here and didn’t want to sit out in the street and drink. And I’m judged now for having 5 children and for my views on how to raise them. I can honestly say I’m okay with all that right now. Judge away if you must.

However, even though I’m okay with being judged, I am mad at myself for judging others. I will continue to try and change… but I don’t have much hope. People will still make me shake my head. And I’m sure, as always, I will blog about it.


The first house we built we unknowingly put it on a street that had no other kids. Most of the people who lived there were older, retired couples. They were very nice, but my kids were pretty bored.

The second house we built was in a very family friendly neighborhood. The street we lived on was divided into 2 cul-de-sacs, each with a ton of kids on it. But, we picked the wrong cul-de-sac to live in. Our kids were friends with the kids in the other cul-de-sac and I got along better with the people over there too. Sure, it was like a minute walk up the road – but far enough.

The third house, our current house, we did the same thing. We had 2 streets to choose from, almost all the lots were open. And we chose the wrong street… again. *I* chose this lot because it didn’t have any boxes on it – ya know the ones – the cable boxes, the phone boxes, whatever they are – the little (sometimes big) ugly green boxes. Well, THIS lot didn’t have a single one on it. All the other ones did. Now, I have to admit this was our second choice. Our first choice was a lot on the other street – the good street. But, someone had switched and put money down on it right before we tried to.

So, here we are on the blah street. I’m sure that my neighbors on this street would disagree. But, they all hang out together. They are all buddies. Why don’t I become buddies with these ladies? Well… they drink an awful lot. I don’t. They gossip a lot. I’m not into that. They talk about things I don’t care about (their weight, exercise, plastic surgery, going out, etc). When they do go out, it’s to clubs, dance halls, bars. It’s just not my kind of scene.

The other street? Much more my style. They are friendly, accepting, down to Earth, and helpful. When they have conversations, they are real conversations, things that I actually care about. When they go out, it’s to Bunco, craft stuff, a dinner out, or a movie. They have parties and it’s not all about drinking and being loud.

Anyone have a way to just pick up my house and drop it on the ONE empty lot left on their street??

Summer Plans

What would I like to do this summer? Hmmmmm…

1) I’d like to spend lots of time with my family.

2) I would like to learn photoshop and be able to use it easily.

3) I would like to finish a book I’m writing.

4) I would like to get pregnant.

5) I would like to spend the night at the beach.

6) I would like to get through the TV shows recorded on my TiVo.

7) I’d like to go camping again.

I’m sure I’ll be adding to this list.

Ah… the holidays.

The lights, the music, the smell of cookies. I love the holidays. I love the spirit of Christmas. I can feel it in the air. The look on my children’s faces when they saw Santa at the Christmas tree farm, when we got a really big tree, when we hit the buttons and the lights on the tree turned on for the first time. They saw the magic. I love watching the shows on TV, hearing the music all around me, and even decorating the Christmas tree!

Along with all the wonderful things about this time of year comes the craziness. The stores are CROWDED. Now that we live in a big city, the stores are more packed than I’ve ever seen. No matter what time I go, it’s ridiculous. I can’t get around anyone –because the stores for some reason have big carts and small aisles – sometimes the stores throw something in the middle of the aisle, making it completely impassible – why do they do that? So, I get shoved and bumped into with not even an apology. I’m scared of losing my kids in the madness. And for what? A few presents. Of course, I could order everything online. That would save me fighting for a parking spot, getting annoyed at other people and waiting in line. But, when I do order stuff online, it gets delayed, rerouted, damaged and I have to worry about not having what I need for Christmas morning.

Sure, sure, it’s not about the presents. But, what mom doesn’t like to see their kids’ eyes light up on Christmas morning?

Is it so much to ask for a simple “Excuse me?” or “I’m sorry” when you bump into me while shopping? Or just a smile letting me know you see me when you cut in front of me? Can we all remember the reason for the season? Lets’ remember how God sent His son to us. Lets’ remember how Mary gave birth to that son. Lets’ remember what Jesus did for us. This season, give to someone; make your heart feel happy. Tell someone you love them. Smile at a stranger. Pay it forward.

Christmas means so many things, what will this season mean for you?


Michael and I went to see Twilight this weekend. Not that you asked, but here are my thoughts on the movie:

Overall, it was a great movie. If you haven’t read the book, you’d like it, understand it and come out probably wanting to read them. If you have read the book, well, you might be a little disappointed. They pretty much ruined the meadow scene. It was easily one of the best scenes in the book. I wonder whose call that was. Loved seeing Stephenie Meyer in the movie – even for a split second. I loved the Cullen family, loved watching them interact, but they weren’t in the movie enough! I know they had to squish hundreds of pages into 2 hours, but I wish they could have made it longer. I wish they had put more into it. I’m hoping the DVD will have deleted scenes and maybe New Moon will be longer.

Loved the scenery. Looked like what I pictured in my head except for the meadow. Where the heck was the meadow??? The rest looked great! I actually liked the kissing scene. It was intense. I liked when Bella met the Cullen family. The baseball scene was great, but too short. It was neat to watch the fight scene come alive. One of my favorite scenes is when Alice smells Bella’s blood and needs Carlisle to take over.

Onto the characters:

Kristen Stewart *looks* like I pictured Bella. She’s a good actress, but not great. I expected to see a girl completely IN LOVE. I didn’t see that until the end. I didn’t see her SMILE. If you’re in love with a guy, wouldn’t you smile a little?

Robert Pattinson – I didn’t think I’d like him, but I did. He won me over. He didn’t seem like the Edward in the book though. That Edward was perfect. This Edward seemed nervous.

Ashley Greene – LOVED her. Loved her voice, loved her hair. She is a great fit. But, she didn’t get a big enough part!!!! I want MORE Alice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jackson Rathbone – Another good actor in a small part. LOVED his look… trying so hard NOT to drink Bella’s blood. The big round eyes that seemed like they were watering as he restrained himself – perfect. But, they never mentioned his gift, his talent. What’s up with that?

Kellen Lutz – Perfect overprotective, teddy bear brother. Good choice for Emmett!

Nikki Reed – Beautiful Rosalie!!! She played the part well. LOVED her!! But, again, she hardly got any time.

Elizabeth Reaser – Not someone I see as maternal. But, her part was so small in the movie, I didn’t have a chance to see her acting maternal.

Peter Facinelli – Cute, kinda young for a fatherly figure and a doctor. And he is a real life father!!! Guess he just looks young. I liked his small part, wished it could be more.

Taylor Lautner – Hot choice for Jacob and another very small part. Can’t wait to see more of him. He looks like a perfect fit!!

Billy Burke – Not bad as Bella’s Dad. Not what I pictured, but he was good.

Cam Gigandet – Scary… hot, I would like him if he was a good guy. Very good actor. Love the whole close eyes, roll eyes, sniff… mmmmm.

Rachelle Lefevre – LOVED her! Scary, beautiful, really wanted to like her… too bad she’s one of the bad vampires.

Now, in watching tons of interviews and behind the scenes stuff – I have found that certain actors are very articulate and intelligent while others – well, they just aren’t. Rachelle Lefevre and Nikki Reed are awesome. I love watching their interviews; they are really into the movie. But, when I watch Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson I am disappointed. They constantly say “Um…” or “Uhhh…” They have mentioned how they didn’t realize what they were getting into and admitted to not reading the books. If I got picked for a role like one in Twilight, I would read all the books so not only would I know exactly what I was getting into, but I would know the character better.

It’s definitely worth seeing the movie. I’d like to see it again. I can’t wait to buy the DVD. I am also thrilled they are making New Moon into a movie.

Picture Day

Yesterday was Christmas picture day. I don’t know what possesses me to do this every year. In the past, I have learned to book the earliest appointment I can get on the day I want. Otherwise you are waiting for everyone else who is late, who takes forever picking out their pictures (YUP, that’s ME!!) and so on. And they always run late!! No matter where we go, no matter what time we go… they run late. Yesterday morning was no different. We had a 9:40 appointment, they opened at 9:00am. They were already behind – said they had camera trouble. UGH!!!

The trouble with making a morning appointment is getting up “early” on a Saturday and getting ready for the BIG picture on time. Trying to get 4 girls in their beautiful Christmas dresses and ourselves ready… well, that’s just not pretty. KRJ decided to have a fit over her tights, black ones, to match the other girls. She didn’t like them, they itched, so she scratched them and left 2 holes… I certainly wasn’t replacing them with 5 minutes left before we had to go. I was livid though! How dare she ruin this? She’s 11!!! She can’t wear them for an hour? I don’t like tights either. I wear them when I have to. Hopefully, the holes won’t show up in any pictures.

So, we arrived early and we waited and waited and waited… Finally, we were called in. The first thing I noticed was that everyone walking past the studio (which was inside JCP) could see us posing for our pictures. Who thought that up? There was this family that stood there in the window and watched the entire photo shoot. They didn’t have anything better to do while they waited?!

The photographers did pretty well. NKJ acted up a lot. She would pose for 5 seconds at a time and was done. We did get a few good pictures out of it. But, I doubt we will go back there – at least until next year, when I’ll do it all over again hoping to get the perfect Christmas shot.

One Tired Mama

I’m exhausted. Not just a little tired, but completely exhausted. I started babysitting this week, a great idea I had to help out with some of our finances (don’t forget to add the sarcasm to that last sentence!!). I forgot that babysitting means getting up early and taking care of someone else’s children. My alarm rings in my ear at 6am now. I usually whack it, mumble something incoherently, and go take my shower – where I then stand for at least 20 minutes talking myself into getting out and starting my day. If I could lie down in the shower and go back to sleep, I probably would.

I can’t nap during the day with someone else’s kids here. By the time they nap, my baby is up from her nap. Leaving only one option for this tired Mama – going to bed early – something a night owl usually doesn’t do. Instead of staying up until midnight or later, I have been trying to go to bed about 10:30. I usually end up tossing and turning until midnight which makes me wonder if this going to bed early thing even helps. My husband keeps telling me that eventually my body (and brain) will get used to going to bed earlier and I’ll magically be able to go right to sleep. Hmmm…

Taking care of someone else’s children is challenging. You have to teach your rules to a little person who is used to a different set of standards. I expect my children to be polite, apparently some other people in the world don’t. This one little girl demands things; she doesn’t ask nicely, doesn’t remember to say please and thank you – just demands. I’m working with her and it has only been a few days, so I’m hopeful. I keep telling her my name because “HEY!” isn’t working for me. And when she sees something with wheels, she must take it and ram it into whatever she feels like – this includes the dog, the walls, the furniture, any toys on the floor and almost my baby. This doesn’t work for me either. I’ve already had to hide a stroller and a grocery cart. I can’t wait to see what today brings!

On top of all of this, I have a cold.


I can’t cook. Most of you know that. I hate cooking. It takes a long time, leaves a mess and you spend five minutes at the table enjoying it. Why bother when you can order a pizza J But, I’m hungry, I want to eat. I want to cook something different. I don’t know how. I bought a steak; I don’t know what to do with it. We buy filet mignons all the time, but my husband grills them. What do I do with this? I don’t like spicy food or lots of gravy/sauce type things, so I got out my cookbook, is there anything in there to help me? No. I search online and find nothing that fits what I want.

Hmmmm… guess it will be pizza again.

Mornings & Nights

I hate getting up in the mornings. I mean I really dread it. Of course, it’s my own fault, I don’t go to bed until 2am. But, I NEED that time. That is MY time!! The kids are all in bed by 9pm (on school nights) and then I get to relax. That’s my time to write, read, play online, and watch TV. I try to get to bed by midnight, but it rarely happens. It’s so peaceful and quiet, I end up staying up until 2am, and then I get cranky at 7 when the alarm goes off!

Oh and when I do go to bed at midnight, I toss and turn for an hour or two, so what’s the point???

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