Archive for October, 2008


I can’t cook. Most of you know that. I hate cooking. It takes a long time, leaves a mess and you spend five minutes at the table enjoying it. Why bother when you can order a pizza J But, I’m hungry, I want to eat. I want to cook something different. I don’t know how. I bought a steak; I don’t know what to do with it. We buy filet mignons all the time, but my husband grills them. What do I do with this? I don’t like spicy food or lots of gravy/sauce type things, so I got out my cookbook, is there anything in there to help me? No. I search online and find nothing that fits what I want.

Hmmmm… guess it will be pizza again.



Rejection is hard to take no matter what shape it comes in, even when you expect it. It is hard to hear the word NO. I got rejected today and even though I knew it was coming, it was still upsetting. I blogged last week about submitting the first chapter of my book to an agency. They were FAST, I’ll give them that, but they said ‘no thanks’. Now, seriously, I didn’t think the very first place I submitted to would say YES! But, I think every writer secretly hopes that their book will blow someone away.

It’s hard to know for sure whether this agent really didn’t connect with the story or the character or if I really suck at writing. I have let lots of online friends read the book and although I don’t know these people in real life, they all told me how wonderful it was. Is it really? Or do they not want to hurt my feelings? This is the hard part. What if I do suck? I wish there was a store I could walk into, give them my manuscript, some money and a week and then go back in for a consultation. That way, after complete strangers have read the book, you would be told: “Yes, it’s great” or “It’s okay, go back and work on it” or “OMG, NO, NO, NO!!!”

Now, the research continues. Who do I submit to next? Who will take a chance with my writing? Do I do all email queries? Do I start printing copies out and sending queries through snail mail? And the most important question: Do I change anything? Just because ONE person didn’t connect, doesn’t mean the next won’t either… Right? Maybe after five or ten rejections, it’ll be time to change things. Or do I break out one of my other books? Things I must sleep on tonight and start tomorrow with a fresh look on things.

One Smart Cookie

My second grader got her report card today. She got straight A’s, there was nothing below a 93. This shouldn’t surprise me since her teacher told me she was extremely smart at our conference last week. All second graders get tested for the gifted program in our district. This is coming up soon! The teacher said that she thought KBJ would score very high!! Considering the fact that DH’s mother and grandfather both have genius IQs, this shouldn’t surprise me either. But, well, it was surprising… that another person thinks your child is SMART! I am SO proud of her! She even made the distinguished honor roll!! WOW!!

KBJ stayed home one day last week because her tummy hurt and almost the whole day she spent writing on the computer. She wrote story after story! She takes after her daddy with her brains, but after me with her creativity 🙂

Mornings & Nights

I hate getting up in the mornings. I mean I really dread it. Of course, it’s my own fault, I don’t go to bed until 2am. But, I NEED that time. That is MY time!! The kids are all in bed by 9pm (on school nights) and then I get to relax. That’s my time to write, read, play online, and watch TV. I try to get to bed by midnight, but it rarely happens. It’s so peaceful and quiet, I end up staying up until 2am, and then I get cranky at 7 when the alarm goes off!

Oh and when I do go to bed at midnight, I toss and turn for an hour or two, so what’s the point???

I Did It!!

I finally sent one of my books to a literary agency. Not the whole book, of course, but a query letter and the first 10 pages! I am really scared because I hate rejection. I hate the thought of someone hating it and saying it sucks. But, I’m excited too!! What if they really like it? What if they want to read more? What if it really is good?

So many people helped me do this! Lots of my friends read it and encouraged me to try and get it published. I can only hope they are right, that the people “in” the business will like it too! One of my friends was a great help in editing and proofreading, I know I couldn’t have done it without her.

Now, the waiting begins. With an email query, they say if you don’t hear back within six weeks you can assume they aren’t interested. If that happens, I’ll just start submitting it to other agencies. Wish me luck!!!!

Finding a Babysitter

Tonight began my quest to find a babysitter so that my husband and I could go on date night! I have no Earthly idea where to start. How do I find someone I like enough to trust with the four most precious things in this world? Will the babysitter love them? Will she be nice? Will she play and keep them happy? Or will it turn ugly the minute we’re out of sight. And how will I know? I could buy a nanny cam. I could question the kids when I get home. But, how will I ever know if this person takes really good care of them?

We interviewed one tonight. She’s in her 20s which is great because I don’t have to worry about the teen drama! She has a house and a car. She seemed nice enough… sweet, quiet. NKJ took to her, but she takes to anybody. The other girls were acting like wild animals! On the other hand, she was quiet… she didn’t talk to the girls too much, didn’t try to ask them questions or be silly with them. I have tried extremely hard to remember what I was like when I would interview as a potential babysitter… I don’t remember being fun, and I was pretty quiet, but I think I was more interested in the kids. Maybe she was just extra shy like I am now!

And the price sure has gone up since I got $2 an hour all those years ago! But, this is a price I’m willing to pay to see Twilight when it comes out!

I Finally Read It

I have been blown away by a vampire series. Yes, you read that right. If you know me well enough, you know I don’t do vampires, zombies, anything too freaky or weird and definitely nothing GORY. Vampires are usually gory. Most of you know how I got turned on to the Twilight series. For those of you who don’t know, the short version, a faker in our mommy forum. She talked about it constantly and after someone else read it and let us know that this girl was almost pretending to be the main character (minus the vampires), I knew I’d have to read it. But, it was about VAMPIRES!!! And again… I don’t do vampires. And then my friend read the book and told me how amazing it was. I finally gave in. Another friend sent me the book.

I. Could. Not. Put. It. Down.

That’s how good it was. It was not gory. It was awesome! It took me 48 hours to finish the book and another 48 to get the 2nd book in the series. I finised that one in 24 hours and waited another day before buying the third. I am in the middle of Eclipse now (the 3rd book) and I am itching to stop writing this so I can get back to it. I cannot wait to read the last book which sounds thrilling. The only thing I’m worried about… is what I’m going to do when I’m done with it?

I know… the movie is coming in another 6 weeks. SIX WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!  Six LONG weeks.

Stephenie Meyer, please keep writing!!!!!!!!!